as in, “Fear no more”, although “With a little help from…” would be more appropriate.
I finally got the stuck left pedal freed, after leaving the crank in the sun and giving it various doses of de-grip spray. I had been clamping the crank in my vice and putting a 15mm open-ended spanner onto the pedal spindle flats and giving it a hefty whack with a 2lb hammer (and yes, I was trying to move it in a clockwise direction because of the left-hand thread), but the spanner had been springing off the flats with no hint of movements in the spindle. All the googled wisdom was that it was the flat surface of the spindle jammed against the crank which was causing the stick, but I found the opposite when I switched to a Crivit pedal spanner and threw my weight against it. The spindle shifted a few degrees. A squirt of de-grip, another hefty heave, and the spindle shifted a few more degrees, to the point where the edge of it was now no longer contacting the crank face, but it was still stiff. After lots of de-grip fluid onto both sides of the crank I was able to wind the pedal out. It had been galling between the threads which had caused the tightness.
I am now in the position of being able to fully-overhaul the pedals that took me round Scandinavia, and then to refit the Stronglight 99 set, but do I want to? I have already found the delight of running very low gears, and the easier mount/dismount from a 175mm length crank, so going back to a 28-28 lowest gear and 170mm cranks would be a step back too far. The only two reasons I could see for going back were the (slight) reduction in weight that an all-alloy set of chainrings gave, and the pleasure of knowing it was my old setup. That then raised another question, about returning to the past. Is it really worth going backwards from the modern technological advances to an earlier situation for purely mental reasons? Was my Pedersen still the same bicycle if I changed the crankset?
I went out for a long ride, climbing all the way up the lengthy slope from Ludwell to Wim Green, (over twelve minutes laborious work in the very lowest gear), and along to the airfield where I had to do a Quasimodo impersonation at the back door to the kitchens. I had set out with an empty water bottle.
Cooled and lubricated, I set off again on the way to Shillingstone Station. I ran through in my mind all the things I had changed on the Pedersen since the return from Scandinavia and the subsequent resurrection. Wheels, because the 27″ tyres were too harsh on the potholed roads. Freewheel, because the 32-14 Suntour block had worn and the Shimano rear changer seemed happier with 28 teeth to climb up onto. Crankset, because of the pedal problem. Front and rear changers, to get them to work with the new gears. Thumb-shifters, because the old left-hand one had failed. Brake blocks front and rear. Chains. But none of those items seemed to be so unique that replacing it with like or different turned the bicycle into a different machine. It was still my pride and joy number one.
This of course is the old philosophical question of what defines a person. I have accumulated many new experiences over the past 32 years, dropped several habits, and yet I am the same person. The cells in my body have (with very few exceptions), been themselves replaced many times in that period. Legally, I am regarded as still answerable for things I did all those years ago. But how can I be the same person when I have changed my mind on many issues that I used to regard as major influences on me? What is it that defines me as unique and unchanging? Physically only the cells in the lenses of my eyes have not been replaced (assuming the 1953 Oak Ridge study with radio-isotopes is correct). I have enough of those fist-in-mouth memories of my crassness to know that I still have all the memories of my past stored somewhere inside of me. The memories remain, even though the cells which provide the support mechanism have changed.
I found I could partly-answer the question about the Pedersen and say that the frame was the unique part that made it my bicycle. However, without wheels, gears, brakes and all the other replaceable parts, it wasn’t really my Pedersen, it had to have a minimum collection of functional accessories before it changed from being a frame to my actual bicycle. I couldn’t however come to a similar conclusion about myself, because I don’t know exactly what memories are. If the bones of a person are taken as analogous the the frame of the Pedersen, would an amputee claim to be no longer the same person? “Your honour, I plead not guilty to the murder of my wife twenty years ago, because my right arm has since been amputated?” I don’t even know if those memories could exist independently of the support system, because at that point we depart the area of rational thought and enter the realms of belief, where ideas are held not only with no observational basis for having such ideas in the first place, but often against common-sense ideas suggesting they were just wishes.
I reached Shillingstone Station having come to the conclusion that it was not possible to pursue this “what is what?” concept further using the current knowledge of things. I did, however, manage to get a clearer idea of the slippery nature of words when it comes to trying to establish what is and what isn’t. Effectively, you can’t. They can’t be used to conclusively prove the existence or non-existence of non-observable things. Going a stage further, I realised that words might be subject to the same limitations that mathematical symbolic systems suffered from: Kurt Gödel’s ideas could just as well apply to language as to mathematics. And the reason could well be that gap between the meaning of the symbols and the meaning of the construct those symbols evoked. “This sentence is false” at the level of the words seems contradictory, but the meaning of the sentence is perfectly clear to me, no matter how the words might force me to switch from one view to another.
Those of you who think I need to get out more might want to consider that it was going out and about prompted that particular pondering.
I came back home by a different route, wandering through the lanes well away from traffic. I’d been out for five hours, and consumed a chicken and mushroom pie and later on an apple, plus half a litre of water. It was one of the hottest days of the month, but the breeze on the bicycle had hidden that heat from me. It was only when I got home and stopped cycling that the full heat of the sun hit me.